“I think I’ve always been half out of my shell and half in. Sometimes I can be extremely wild and sometimes I can be extremely shy. It just depends on the day” – Emile Hirsch

I watched the movie “Into the Wild” tonight.

For those who haven’t watched it yet, I recommend that you do.

I was recommended to see it by a guy that I dated for a brief moment in time. After watching it, I have a much better understanding of his perspective on conformity and society.

In the movie, the character (played by Emile Hirsch) leaves everything behind to lead a life free of material possessions. He goes into nature, far from any form of civilization, to be with himself.

I don’t want to spoil the movie for anyone, but basically in the end, he comes to terms with his own self-actualization and discovery.

I’m not going to go off on some long tangent about the foolishness of the human race, but I will say that people are getting more and more bored with their lives.

After the invention of social media websites that refrain us from actually making personal connections with people, we’ve become jaded. We’re always in the know when it comes to other people’s personal lives.

Why reach out when you can just secretly snoop? Why say anything at all?

But we do.

We say everything over the internet. So much to the point that nobody cares to hear it anymore. I feel guilty even publishing my views via WordPress. But of course, I’m conforming to the norm of getting your voice heard through the internet.

It has to go somewhere right?

Similar to the character in the movie, I sometimes feel the urge to pack up my things and run away from people. Run away from everyone I know and just go somewhere completely new. But what good would that do me if I haven’t even closed the chapter on where I am now?

I think we need to learn how to face our fears. Stare them down and confront them. Overcome our feelings of uneasiness.

I’ve struggled for a long time with finding inner-peace. I would continuously look for happiness from being in a relationship or accomplishing a goal or something along those lines.

I’m still on that journey to self-discovery. I know I can’t run away yet. I’d be leaving an entire chapter unwritten and I guess this is why I’m even documenting my life in this blog.

Just filling in the chapters.